And, sometimes, your past has to come out before you can move on into your future.
When I first met Chase, his air was so calm. It was so different from how I grew up.
Everyone was instantly a fan of his when we met him at Seat Time, because he was the perfect representation of a NASCAR driver.
When Chase leant me his suit (before meeting him at Seat Time):
It was in a live stream that Chase asked me what I'd do if he sent me a suit. Everyone knew that I'd love to wear it in a live stream.
So many unimaginable things stopped me from meeting Chase to pick up that suit, but when it was in my hands, it was a tool that helped tremendously.
Trying to get it back to him:
The way I was raised, I was never supposed to take what someone had offered me.
Growing up, it was so hard to find a friend I loved that actually met one or both of my parents' standards.
I kept telling Chase I would get the suit back to him as soon as possible, but he was so cool and never demanding.
I promised him I would never wear it to a Seat Time event, and I couldn't find out why I did.
I kept telling him I'd send it back before we ever met up at the NASCAR Hall of Fame on Mr. Wayne Finley's birthday, but so many delays stopped that (overdrawn bank account, weather, car breaking down, etc.).
He never showed any type of judgement either way.
The mind that guides you:
As said before, hearts and minds are subject to change (but not in our timing).
I can't have the mind of my mother (anxious, fearful, pushy, sometimes extremely rude and demanding), and the mind of my father (extremely rude, judgemental, and demanding), and carry those into the environment I wish to succeed in.
But all experiences will constantly shape us into the people WE are meant to be.
The premise of the fire suit:
When leant to me, it was going to go back to Chase for his collection one day. It was going to be put on display in a collection.
When I woke up this morning:
When I woke up this morning, it was time to send the suit back. I received a message from Chase late last night to send it back up, but it wasn't for him and his collection.
When he receives it, it will no longer be in his hands.
My dad was very upset that I was sending it back. I had told him many times over that Chase leant me the suit.
NASCAR is a game of numbers. There are tight tolerances, and when it comes to reaching the finish line, it is the very closest finishes that are the most exciting.
When I worked for Kirk May, the saying was that we wanted to get everything "dead nuts."
There was no cutting corners–it was exact measurements only.
In the same way, our personal struggles will always be forming us (mentally, physically, and spiritually), until the time comes when our dreams are meant to come true.
But that timing belongs to the Storyteller, as the whole world is in His Hands.
An in-depth story on Chase's fire suit: